Why is it that we’re not obsessed with food until we begin a “diet”? Why do we just not care about anything until we decide that we’re going to watch our intake? How many little kids (Pageant kids don’t count–they’ve been ‘broken’ by society’s skewed image of what a girl should do at an early age!)
One of my friends pointed out that food tracking is a job inside a job. She’s right. Thank you, Chele! You’re 100% right about that!! It’s a lot of hard work. When I was actively following Weight Watchers, one of my former co-workers teased me a lot about being obsessed with food. I ate, breathed and slept food. I counted points somewhat religiously. I say somewhat because I ESTIMATED and didn’t add the points correctly. I was somewhat successful…and then I dropped out of WW because of other commitments–martial arts, family, etc.
I never went back to WW meetings. I was actively frustrated by only losing half pounds every week or gaining. I know it’s going to happen, but I got annoyed. I’d like to go back. I think it’s useful, but…I don’t like having to track every single slice of bread, every morsel. They had a saying in the meetings: “BLTs count as well.” A “BLT” is a Bite, a Lick and a Taste. When you’re cooking, do you find yourself BLT’ing? (I do.)
I would seriously like to blame “TOM”, my metabolism or something else for my failings at weight loss. Ultimately, though, the responsibility starts with me. I have to take responsibility for my obsessions. I need to make the journalling second nature so that I can move forward in my journey to be a better person. Once that’s done, I won’t panic as much. It takes 21 days to make a habit. I have to re-learn the habit of journalling so that I can just do it because.